Thursday, September 25, 2008

The Vista

As I stared out the window on the sixth floor of the hospital, my mind and soul cleared. The various hues of green were slowly changing as the sun came up over the horizon. Days in a hospital room are not unlike days in jail: incarcerated by illness rather than for a crime. I needed the vista this morning. I needed it to be the son God wants and to be he husband my wife needs today. I needed to look out and remember that life and God are so much greater than this light and momentary trial. Something in the sky caught my eye. I thought it as an airplane on the horizon, then perhaps a huge bird closer by. As I continued to look, I realized it was a blemish on the outside of the window. At that point my thoughts became aware of the buildup of water spots and smudges on the outside of our sixth floor window. Now when I look through at the vista, I cannot help but see them, too. The view that had been my strength is now clouded by the imperfections so close to my own eyes.

Too often, we live our lives like this. When we get serious about following Christ, we get serious about ourselves. Sometimes Satan and Self ally to saboutage our sanctification by twisting our focus. They keep us so focused on our sin, our immaturity, and our own personal needs that we forget to look beyond to Christ, the goal set before us. Through Paul, God gives us clear direction. "I say then, walk in the Spirit and you will not fulfill the lust of the flesh." (Gal. 5:16) To focus on self and sin will only lead to a sin-focused life. To focus on God, on Christ, and walking after the Spirit, will lead us to the life we desire. Christ is our vista.